Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Just Kidding?

This last week has been fun sharing our news with our families and some of our friends. But it still feels like we're just pretending. It sure doesn't seem real yet. Maybe a few months after the baby is born it will finally sink in?

A few times now Paul has put his hands on my stomach and tried to feel something. He also has put his ear to my stomach to try to hear something. Nothing to see or feel yet. I am looking forward to when he CAN see and feel something.

And the last piece of important news....Cheerios are my new best friend.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Merry Christmas!

Yesterday was Christmas Day! Paul and I went over to my parents house and gave them this Christmas ornament. It took them a minute to notice the key point of the ornament...the pregnant lady! Finally they saw it and were very happy for us.

My sister Jo and niece Lori came over and we showed them the ornament. They both looked at it and together said, "Uh-oh!" Lori is very excited to have a cousin that lives in the same state as her. All of her other cousins live across the country so she doesn't see them very often.

Then we all went over to my Grandma and Aunt's house where we were able to share the news with my Grandma, Aunt, Uncle, Cousin, and Brother-in-law. Of course we had good food and presents too!

I am so thankful for my family. I am thankful that they are so excited for us and that they will always be there to help us when we need it. I love you guys!

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Christmas Eve

Today I finished working 9 days in a row at Macy's. It was horrible. I have been so exhausted, and my feet hurt so bad. But it's finally over and I have a few days off before I work 3 more days next week.

Tonight we had fun spending time with Paul's grandparents, aunt & uncle, and cousins. They were happy to hear our news. We also called Paul's parents who live in Moses Lake and Paul broke the news to his Dad that he is going to be a Grandpa. Paul actually had told his mom the news last week when he called her to wish her a happy birthday. They are both very happy for us.

Tomorrow we tell my family!

Thursday, December 10, 2009

7 Weeks

Today I am 7 weeks pregnant. And I am going to be working almost everyday for the next 2 weeks before Christmas.

Christmas is coming soon and I am both excited and scared to start telling everyone. It still kinda feels like we are just pretending to be pregnant.

I have started feeling nauseous the last few days, mostly just if I haven't eaten for a couple of hours. I feel a lot more sick in the evenings than in the mornings.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

It's December

Today is December first. We are planning to tell our families our news at Christmas, if we can wait that long. I will be 9 weeks along by then.

My cold is finally starting to get better, though I'm still tired.

Yesterday I went to a Pregnancy Clinic and they gave me another pregnancy test. They gave me a lot of helpful information and resources. After that I stopped at Value Village and bought a pair of maternity jeans for $3! I don't need them yet, but it was fun to get something. I also got some prenatal vitamins today.

Every Tuesday morning I work in the nursery at church for 3 hours during MOPS, which is a program for mom's with small kids. This morning it was so strange to hold little babies and try to imagine what holding my own baby will be like.

Tonight Paul and I went to Walmart to walk around for something to do. While we were there he suggested going over to look at all the baby gear to start thinking about what we will need. After that we decided to go out for dinner since we haven't for quite awhile and I may start feeling too sick to be able to enjoy food any day now. We had a nice evening together.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Sickness Before the Sickness

I'm tired of being sick. No, not the nauseous kind. From what I've read most women start feeling nauseous around week 6, which is one week from now. I'm sure not looking forward to that.

Right now I am tired of this nasty cold...coughing, sore throat, hard to breathe, etc. I've had it for over a month, I think. I've been pretty tired too, which could be due to the cold or the pregnancy. Anyway, I'm hoping to get over the cold soon, especially before I start the morning sickness.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

I'm Pregnant!...Day 2

Today is the the first full day of knowing. It's all I can think about.

I took another pregnancy test this morning just to make sure.....still positive! And the lines were a bit darker.

Today I had to work 9 hours at Macy's, where I am working for the Christmas season. Monday was my first day of training, and then today I had 2 hours of training and then my first 7 hour shift. It was a long day.

On one of my breaks I walked through the baby section and looked at some of the infant clothes. I started crying!

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, and we're seeing both of our families. I wonder if we will be able to keep the secret!

Is this really happening???

Tuesday, November 24, 2009


Tonight I am in total shock.

I took a pregnancy test 2 days ago and it was negative. But yesterday and today it was still all I could think about. Finally about 5pm I jumped in the car and ran to Walmart to buy another test. As soon as I got home I took it. Positive.

I can't really think of another time in my life when I have been in such an extreme state of shock. I wasn't really feeling positve emotions or negative ones...just shock. I had about 20 minutes until I expected Paul home from school. All I could think was, "Come home, Paul, come home." And all I could do was walk around the apartment staring at the test. I walked into the living room and stared at it. Walked into the bedroom and stared at it. Couldn't even sit down.

For years I've thought about how I would tell my husband that we were going to have a baby. Would I take him to some special place, or have a nice dinner together first. It would be something romantic and special, right? Well, here's how it went down:

Paul walks in the door and I'm standing there.
"Hi," says me.
"Hi," he replies.
"I took a pregnancy test."
"Oh. What did it say?"
Still in shock, I hold the test out for him to see. Of course, he doesn't know what the different lines mean.
"Since you're not saying anything it must be positive?"
I nod.

After that, I still was in total shock for a few minutes. Paul gave me a hug and I started crying. And that was my romantic way of telling him.

I guess we didn't make it to my birthday to start trying. This is definately a little sooner that we had planned. Paul finishes school the end of June and I think I am due the end of July. I am nearly 5 weeks pregnant today.

It is 2 days before Thanksgiving, when we are seeing Paul's family and my family. Paul said we should just tell everyone then, but I think it's too soon. I don't think I could handle people starting to ask us questions and all of their emotions when I don't even have mine sorted out yet. I guess we'll see what happens.


Monday, November 2, 2009

What to Expect

This week I've been reading "What to Expect Before You're Expecting". I got it from the Library. It's all about things that you should do before you start trying to conceive and ways to increase your chances of conception once you start. I have read a few things that are helpful that I may actually do. But most of the suggestions go way overboard. For example, I probably am not going to get life insurance, have a will drawn up, and a million other things before we try to make a baby. I did however start taking a multi-vitamin this week.
Less than four months to go! Yikes!

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Babies Everywhere But Here

It seems like EVERYONE is having a baby.

Friends from college are having babies, former roommates have new little ones, friends in the Czech Republic are making announcements, they are coming at me from all directions.

Our Sunday School class at church is a baby factory. The class is for young married couples and it seems like every week someone is announcing that they are pregant or someone is giving birth. We have a lot of baby showers. The legend is that there is a secret chair in our meeting room and if a woman sits in it, she will soon become pregnant.

While I love seeing the pregnant ladies and the tiny babies every week, I am often jealous too. When will it be my turn? Will that really be me one day?

Paul assures me that yes, my turn will come. And I am trying to believe him.

Friday, August 28, 2009

6 Months!

Today is my half-birthday! That means it is exactly 6 months until my 30th birthday! Yikes!

It seems like I should have a list of things that I want to accomplish before I have kids. Advance my education or career, travel to somewhere, or take up a new hobby. I don't know.

I know that my life will be taken over by my children, and I definately won't have time for myself like I do know. But I can't think of anything I want to do before I have kids. Is that weird?

Monday, August 24, 2009

Secret Blog...For Now

This is my secret blog. You cannot read it...yet.

A few weeks ago Paul and I went for a walk late at night, and he said he had something important that he wanted to talk about. I got a little nervous, as I could tell it was something big, but I had no idea what he was thinking about. It turned out he wanted to talk about when we are going to start trying to have a baby!

It really surprized me when Paul said that he had been thinking about this for several days and wanted to talk about it with me. We came to the decision that we are going to start trying on my 30th Birthday, Feb 29th. Only 6 months away!

It's hard to balance everything in my head. On one hand I've been waiting for this for SO long, and on the other hand 6 months sounds like such a very short time. On one hand we are no where near financially stable, and on the other hand we may not be financially stable for a LONG time. On one hand I'm turning 30, and on the other hand...am I really old enough to have a baby? Aren't I still a kid too?

Anyway, I haven't told anyone yet of this plan of ours that is only 6 months away. But it's hard to keep it a secret, so I'm writing it here so that you can ready about it later.

For now, this blog will be my little secret. I'll write thoughts about getting ready for pregnancy, and the excitement of finding out I'm pregnant. Then, sometime after we've made the big announcement to our parents and friends, I will open up this blog for others to read. And after the baby is born, I can't wait to begin posting baby pictures for friends and the grandparents to look at! So...if someone other than me is reading this right now....then yipee! It means I'm pregnant! I am happy I can share these secrets with you now that the cat is out of the bag, the bun is in the oven, or whatever expression is appropriate.