Saturday, November 28, 2009

Sickness Before the Sickness

I'm tired of being sick. No, not the nauseous kind. From what I've read most women start feeling nauseous around week 6, which is one week from now. I'm sure not looking forward to that.

Right now I am tired of this nasty cold...coughing, sore throat, hard to breathe, etc. I've had it for over a month, I think. I've been pretty tired too, which could be due to the cold or the pregnancy. Anyway, I'm hoping to get over the cold soon, especially before I start the morning sickness.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

I'm Pregnant!...Day 2

Today is the the first full day of knowing. It's all I can think about.

I took another pregnancy test this morning just to make sure.....still positive! And the lines were a bit darker.

Today I had to work 9 hours at Macy's, where I am working for the Christmas season. Monday was my first day of training, and then today I had 2 hours of training and then my first 7 hour shift. It was a long day.

On one of my breaks I walked through the baby section and looked at some of the infant clothes. I started crying!

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, and we're seeing both of our families. I wonder if we will be able to keep the secret!

Is this really happening???

Tuesday, November 24, 2009


Tonight I am in total shock.

I took a pregnancy test 2 days ago and it was negative. But yesterday and today it was still all I could think about. Finally about 5pm I jumped in the car and ran to Walmart to buy another test. As soon as I got home I took it. Positive.

I can't really think of another time in my life when I have been in such an extreme state of shock. I wasn't really feeling positve emotions or negative ones...just shock. I had about 20 minutes until I expected Paul home from school. All I could think was, "Come home, Paul, come home." And all I could do was walk around the apartment staring at the test. I walked into the living room and stared at it. Walked into the bedroom and stared at it. Couldn't even sit down.

For years I've thought about how I would tell my husband that we were going to have a baby. Would I take him to some special place, or have a nice dinner together first. It would be something romantic and special, right? Well, here's how it went down:

Paul walks in the door and I'm standing there.
"Hi," says me.
"Hi," he replies.
"I took a pregnancy test."
"Oh. What did it say?"
Still in shock, I hold the test out for him to see. Of course, he doesn't know what the different lines mean.
"Since you're not saying anything it must be positive?"
I nod.

After that, I still was in total shock for a few minutes. Paul gave me a hug and I started crying. And that was my romantic way of telling him.

I guess we didn't make it to my birthday to start trying. This is definately a little sooner that we had planned. Paul finishes school the end of June and I think I am due the end of July. I am nearly 5 weeks pregnant today.

It is 2 days before Thanksgiving, when we are seeing Paul's family and my family. Paul said we should just tell everyone then, but I think it's too soon. I don't think I could handle people starting to ask us questions and all of their emotions when I don't even have mine sorted out yet. I guess we'll see what happens.


Monday, November 2, 2009

What to Expect

This week I've been reading "What to Expect Before You're Expecting". I got it from the Library. It's all about things that you should do before you start trying to conceive and ways to increase your chances of conception once you start. I have read a few things that are helpful that I may actually do. But most of the suggestions go way overboard. For example, I probably am not going to get life insurance, have a will drawn up, and a million other things before we try to make a baby. I did however start taking a multi-vitamin this week.
Less than four months to go! Yikes!